As I sit here and observe these insane thoughts, I see how compelling they are. There’s a habitual tendency to make them real. This ego “I” wants to make the errors of others real. In turn, the errors of myself seem real and seem to be such a dilemma.
With Holy Spirit witnessing these dynamics, I feel divine mercy for the human frailties. HS knows that this is all a dream. These are illusions. None of this is real. This holiness of What I really am has patience, has… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on January 15, 2010 at 1:21pm —
Boy, I really got stuck in some dreaming a few times this weekend. It was related to some themes I’ve “believed” about my sisters and our relationship. I’ve had a story for years that a few of them think I’m weird, talk about me and I become the bad guy of the family because I don’t conform or see things the same way they do. I’ve blamed them and many times have felt justified and victimized because they do “do this.” I’ve progressed a lot with forgiving and being free from this but the… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on January 4, 2010 at 5:42am —
I remember I am not human. Creation extends through me in human form but the form is not Who/What I am. I am a spiritual being having a human experience.
Some things we experience are beyond comprehension.
Have you ever noticed how you experience Truth, Oneness, All That Is – which we so long for – and then you can only be present to it for a minute, or even seconds, before ego comes in and wants to understand it? It’s like you get so close to the fire, it gets… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on December 31, 2009 at 5:27am —
On Dec 18, while meditating in reflection of my Mom just passing away, I released a separation energy that I sometimes experience and feel amongst my siblings and the grandchildren. This seemed to be sparked by a merging in Oneness with Mom just before she died. I held her hand and escorted her into the okayness of dying. It felt slightly like I was one with her and we/I were dissolving into the light.
In invoked spontaneously with Holy Spirit that everybody be free from… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on December 21, 2009 at 7:21pm —
As Mom went unconscious yesterday and it is likely that her last words have been spoken, the last reaching out with hand holding and hugging is complete, I focus my thoughts on the following excerpts from WHO DIES by Stephen Levine.*
“You are now with all those you loved and you can leave this body without qualms or any feeling of unfinished business. There still may be moments of fear or confusion along the way, instances when the mind closes around some thought.” But… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on December 12, 2009 at 12:00pm —
Lesson 338 rang for days this week. “I am affected only by my thoughts.” “. . . All other plans will fail. And I will have thoughts that will frighten me, until I learn that You have given me the only Thought that leads me to salvation. Mine alone will fail, and lead me nowhere.”
Wonderful . . . I really immersed in it. It aligns perfectly with my awareness/mindfulness meditation practices. At times I felt the freedom and simplicity that lies here when I really got it that… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on December 7, 2009 at 10:00pm —
There's a discussion going on with Carrie's blog, "the guilty one," that you might want to check out. Seems to me to be a great example of the value of a site like this. I just posted this and decided to make a blog from it. My intention is acknowledging the value in what everyone is writing/saying, not that only what I posted was of value. This post just summarizes what I've been wanting to write for a week or so.
This discussion warms… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on December 6, 2009 at 11:30pm —
I’ve been recalling and laughing about how I used the Course the first few times around to engrain the positive thoughts and embody the beautiful potentialities of our True Identity Jesus writes about. Ever since the days of my first introduction to “positive thinking” by Napoleon Hill in the 80s, I’ve been attracted to and learning about the unlimited possibilities of True Identity. I’ve really resonated with remembering the “Truth” and have had some great, liberating moments… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 29, 2009 at 5:00pm —
Was writing daily on another site about gratitude, what there is to be thankful for in this month of Thanksgiving. Without all the details and such, I just wanted to post a few thank you’s here. First, I am so grateful that I'm actively forgiving illusions and sharing my perception with Holy Spirit. It is awesome how there's a power way greater than "me" that knows how to dissolve things that for years I thought I had to figure out. Well, honestly, I just wasn’t as willing to “give up” certain… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 24, 2009 at 11:23am —
A couple friends reached out to me from despair/depression in the last week. They know I've been through this at times and it doesn't "curse" me as it used to seem. I remembered I had created a prayer last year with ACIM influence that helped me when I felt in despair. It really helped me to remember I'm not alone--that a power greater, our Creator, is ever present to turn to. Sometimes when depressed, I feel like I don't have access to this Source (or even that God has abandoned me, that… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 20, 2009 at 11:56am —
The more I forgive, the more natural is the state of allowing what is. The more I allow what is, the more it naturally follows that Holy Spirit is Present and miracles abound (that good ole change in perception--thanks Tom). This has really shone since Friday, when there have been three "crises" and one forgiveness of something I was holding onto for months. In all these instances, there was an effortlessness to allow what was and to forgive.
One "crisis" was that I… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 16, 2009 at 10:10pm —
I was with two of the “love’s of my life” last night. As I parked my car, I was greeted with playfulness, laughs of mischief and a piece of crayon-colored artwork created yesterday by Bryce, who’s almost 7. This touched me so deeply, my heart melted and I practically cried. I told his Mom about this when I got in the house and she told me he colored the picture specifically for me and was excited to give to me when I showed up.
When he was younger, his greetings when… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 13, 2009 at 9:22am —
I've been noticing how, even after all these years, I have an aversion to get really quiet and hear that still small voice. I avoid or get distracted from spending time within. I'm more seduced into all this stimulating and exciting activity in my alone time, e.g., blogging, reading, guided visualizations, writing, you tubing (you've got to see this one!!) etc. etc. Not that these things are bad, mind you, but they can become like an addiction to keep me away from nurturing a… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 11, 2009 at 1:52pm —
I woke up this morning with this on my mind feeling Holy Spirit had something to share. On another site, there's a thread it relates to and I commented as follows to that blog. It's sort of directed to XXX if she's reading/following this thread. XXX, if it resonates, then it will be helpful. If not and in either case, we'll both move on. But THANK YOU because this has been a powerful lesson for me and I’ve added this “piece” to my blog post… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 6, 2009 at 9:50am —
Just a few follow up “thoughts” from my blog yesterday. After posting it, I went out running and, as often happens, I get thoughts that seem important (these fly through quickly but powerfully) as well as those that I obsess about a little and take me nowhere. I can’t say for certain but the former ones seem to be Holy Spirit (or Divine Partner, as I call “my” version of one Self). Acting on them more and more and seeing what results has led me to… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 6, 2009 at 9:39am —
It never ceases to amaze me how we are guided to things that meet our requests. This involves a request I've been putting out about whether it's valid to practice myself and teach others ways to love our self since “our self” isn’t real nor does it exist. In this human’s life, I felt a lot of lack of love early on, kept seeking it outside of myself from someone, was disappointed when I didn’t get it, decided something must be wrong with me, and that I’m not lovable. So, ego… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 5, 2009 at 5:00pm —
We say we don’t know difference between the voice of ego and Voice for God. But honestly, it’s because we’re not really ready to hear our True Voice. Even more so, we're not ready to ACT from IT.
We say we want to remove the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence. But honestly, we’re scared shitless to BE love’s presence.
Truth is too threatening to ego. It requires that I give up "my" voice, beliefs, thoughts, control,… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 3, 2009 at 12:38pm —
Two nights last week while I was making dinner, I had awareness moments where I caught myself thinking about something and was totally not present to cutting the vegetables. I was like, “Whoa . . . notice that you’re thinking about XYZ right now, feeding stories and making meaning out of these hypothetical conversations. I’m so far from being present to making dinner.” I admitted this happens a lot actually.
I’m sure this happens to… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on November 1, 2009 at 11:00pm —
In BRINGERS OF THE DAWN, Barbara Marciniak brings up an example of how we simply place an order and trust that it will come when we order a meal at a restaurant. I thought how this relates to true forgiveness and inviting Holy Spirit in to shine light on an area we’ve kept hidden in darkness.
Let’s look at the restaurant scenario for a minute. You go in, look at the menu, choose what you want and tell them “this is what I want.” Then,… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on October 31, 2009 at 6:01pm —
I’ve been “stuck” in putting together a piece on my experience in doing a review of the 1st 50 lessons in the Course. There are so many ideas, words and thoughts but they’re not all coming together in a cohesive, concise but thorough way. I’m used to feeling this when I write a “finished” post. This one isn’t as “perfect” as I like nor does it seem “finalized” yet. So I’m doing an experiment and putting out an “unfinished” piece. This is a free… Continue
Added by patrice sauve on October 30, 2009 at 2:13pm —