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Consciously Practicing The Metaphysical

While practicing the lessons in ACIM and forgiveness whenever the need comes up. I always try to remind myself of the metaphysical part of ACIM and the dream that I am experiencing. Yet I have not really done this in a linear timeline for a long continious period of time.

The other day, my wife and I had to go shopping or I should say that she had to go shopping and I had to stand around bored out of my mind while she did. :-) Oh the the forgiveness lessons always keep coming. I need to start projecting man chairs in some of these stores. Just kidding, kinda, LOL.

All kidding aside I usally entertain myself while she's shopping by casually walking around the store and checking out the merchandise.

As an experiment I decided to walk around the store looking at everything and everyone one while keeping consciously in my mind that everything and everyone that I was seeing was not real and merely a projection of my consciousness.

At first it seemed really cool . I would look at something and think, "Wow this is just merely a projection of my own consciousness. I did that." But after about 15 or 20 minutes and seeing people arguing and doing things that I didn't care for, I started to feel real uncomfortable with the situation and started to feel a bit overwhelmed. I started to feel a resistance to what was going on around me and I could hear my thoughts tell me, " I didn't make this. There is no way in hell that this came from my own projection." And I could feel the urge to dissasociate everything start to become really strong.

I then realized that I was becoming my emotions instead of being aware that emotions were simply happening within the moment. I was getting sucked back into my story. So I stopped and just became aware of my resistance to what was happening and watched how I felt without trying to judge it. This kind of felt surreal, becauase I felt that I was somehow outside the experience observing it.

Yet I have to honestly admit that the experience did leave a bad taste in my mouth. Even while practicing the course's lessons and reading the text over and over and getting a deeper meaning out of it each time that I do, there is a dissasociation in my psyche that runs much much deeper than I consciously thought.

The course says to not underestimate the ego and Ken Wapnick's books says that when we think we have it all figured out, be sure that is the ego trying to appease us, so that we won't dig any deeper. It seems the other day I unwittingly dug deeper than my ego wanted me to.

Without trying to over analzye it too much. I am also thinking that the first part of the experiment, when I thought how cool the experience was, was actually my ego coming in through the back door and admiring its power to project.

Of course these are just my thoughts for today. They may change tomorrow. But it was an interesting experiement for myself.

Take care,

Eric

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Comment by Eric G. on October 7, 2009 at 1:35pm
Hi Patrice,

Thank you for reading my ramble. It was quite amazing an experience to see that dissasociation runs much deeper than I thought that it did on a conscious level. As a matter of fact it kind of carried over for a while that I felt a dissasociation to everything, including the need to step away from ACIM. Obviously there was something threatening in what I did that my ego was none to pleased about. Thankfully I am realizing that I can use anything especially discomfort as a forgiveness lesson. Which has helped me quite a bit.

Hi Ruby long time no talk. Yes, Tolle's teachings were a great primer for me to read ACIM and I still take out his books every once in a while or pop in the Findhorn Retreat DVD's and watch it or listen as I am studying for my test. I think I might do that now. Good idea Ruby LOL thank you for being the catalyst fo that great idea!

But yes, Tolle's teachings of just observing the thought or discomfort without any judgment definately did help me when I experienced this. I have noticed from reading Ken's books lately that he also says the same thing about this. To simply look without judgment. I am really enjoying his writings and I would urge any serious student that feels that there are some parts of the course that they are not understanding, to read some of his stuff.

I feel I am removing the blocks to love's presence, but from the other day, I see the blocks run much deeper than I previously thought and that's OK. I accept that, and will work with my inner teacher to help me remove these blocks. As the course says, leave nothing hidden in the dark corners of your mind. I didn't even realize those blocks that I was hiding until I "accidentally" stumbled upon them. Now is this hidden fear brought into the light. Now with my awareness of this. I can look upon these fears with the Holy Spirit and shine them away with the light together.

Take care,

Eric
Comment by Ruby on October 7, 2009 at 2:09am
Hi Eric, What came to mind as I read your post is Eckhart Tolle. I think you posted that having been a student of Eckhart Tolle's before coming to the Course has helped you to grasp the Course. Eckhart Tolle's work has helped me with not getting too caught up in analysis... stream of thinking. I'm grateful to Eckhart Tolle's emphasis in that all that is required is that we be present... that Presence is like a flashlight on the now...not to judge but just be the space for it...that there is an intelligence beyond thought.. and the insights that come will dawn of itself. I too have been enjoying Ken Wapnick lately.... particularly his emphasis on looking within our own minds...that everything is an opportunity to look at the blocks we impose ... and then releasing to Holy Spirit ... which to me is the same as Presence (Christ consciousness... the light (understanding) that flows from Source of Love (God). Thanks Patrice... love your insights and your sharing .. in particular "The degree of unconscious guilt is quite amazing when we start really looking at it. You're not alone where ego tries to trick us into only digging so deep and then scares us away. I'm enjoying and less afraid than I used to be about standing up to ego and saying, "I know you don't like this and it's uncomfortable but we're going forward anyway!!"...Yes!.. Thanks. I've been juggling my time between here and other commitments so don't get to read everything that's posted. Great to see the depth of sharing. Love and gratitude, Ruby
Comment by patrice sauve on October 6, 2009 at 1:50pm
Eric, I love this live example of the classroom!! It lights me up--you may have noticed if you read my writings--when we get into nitty gritty honesty of our practices and share what comes up. Your line, "there is a dissasociation in my psyche that runs much much deeper than I consciously thought" struck me as YES. The degree of unconscious guilt is quite amazing when we start really looking at it. You're not alone where ego tries to trick us into only digging so deep and then scares us away. I'm enjoying and less afraid than I used to be about standing up to ego and saying, "I know you don't like this and it's uncomfortable but we're going forward anyway!!"
Comment by Lonni on October 6, 2009 at 1:27pm
Thanks for sharing your experiment, Eric! Great insights. :)

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