A few weeks ago, I distinctly heard my Inner Teacher say, "Sheryl, You cannot go where you want to go, and stay where you are now."
Upon hearing this, I was once again reminded of the ideas I wrote about in a previous blog on the passage in the Bible about wine skins. In today's session of "Oh My God! I'm Free!" I was inspired to share these ideas once again.
In late 2007 and early 2008 as I was being urged to let go of particular habits that were no longer serving me, I received quite a bit of insight on the passage in the Bible about not being able to put new wine in old wineskins. If new wine is poured into old wine skins the skins will burst and thus the wine is wasted.
My inner teacher has reminded me of these teachings off and on for the past few years as it relates to what was going on with me then, and now. The essential message Spirit gave me was this: "Sheryl I cannot pour new power into you if you are unwilling to give up old ways of being, old attitudes and old habitual thought patterns." It was a Wow moment to realize that these teachings were not just words in a book but contained powerful truth related to my own life.
Then in November of last year I began a study of NTI (The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament), and it was no surprise to find the same teachings here.
NTI, Matthew 9:14-17
"Let go of old habits and old ways of thinking. They have not served you. To hold onto the old is to create a future like the past. That is not useful to you now. Listen to my word. Hear what I say. Practice it. Then you will know what to do."
NTI, Luke 5:33-39
"Old habits must be let go, for old habits will not usher in a new day. With old habits, all things remain the same. But with new habits, all things are possible. I have come to teach you new habits. You will learn these habits by practicing them as I ask. Remember Me, and practice. You will catch yourself practicing the old habits, for this has been your way until now. Slipping into old habits does not ruin the new ones. So when you find yourself doing this, forgive yourself..."
I have been directed to this guidance off and on throughout this entire year and received greater insight on it fairly recently. I'd like to point out how all great spiritual literature meets us where we are: When I was first directed to these passages I heard this: "When you find yourself slipping into old habits, forgive yourself." So for quite awhile I did practice forgiving myself for falling into my old thought and behavior habits.
A couple months ago, however, I was evidently ready to hear this: "So when you find yourself doing this, forgive yourself your attraction to the old by stepping away from the old and stepping into the new. Each time you do this, you help yourself to unlearn the old and learn the new. Take no old habits with you into the new, for the old habits must be left completely if the new habits are to result in new."
So through this I see how spirit meets us where we are. Earlier in the year I was urged to forgive myself for my departures into the old. Now I'm being guided to forgive myself "by" stepping away from the old and into the new. In other words, I forgive myself by practicing!
How do I practice? All behavior comes from thought. Any practice that is used to let go of old ways of thinking will do. This material has certainly spoken to me about behavioral habits, but on a deeper level, it speaks to letting go of the old habits of thinking that keep me stuck in behavior patterns that no longer serve me. One practice that I really like is to simply give my thoughts to Holy Spirit for the purpose of healing my mind.
Another practice that comes to mind in lieu of this being discussed during our sessions dealing with compulsive behavior, is the willingness to bring the Divine Presence in with you while you eat, or engage in any other activity that you feel is compulsive. When we are willing to let Love dine with us, the purpose changes from one of fear, guilt, judgment and attack, to one of love.
I then closed the session with a prayer:
I seek a future different from the past.
Holy Spirit, may you reveal to me
a new perception of myself.
I have been mistaken about who I am,
and now I want to choose the present to be free.
I leave my future in Your hands
and leave behind my past mistakes.
Guide me in your holy light.
Audio #3 of "Oh My God! I'm Free" sessions
Recorded on 1-12-10 is 1 hour and 19 minutes.